The Risk

I took the risk again...and I lost....AGAIN.

Tell me

Beach in Chaweng, Koh Samui, Thailand

Tell me, how well do you value your loved one?

Do you justify to yourself that the bigger things are more important than doing the smaller things? That doing the bigger things has a higher priority because in the end what you are doing is for them?

Were you too caught up in the moment, confident in the knowledge that they will always be there, waiting for you?

When was the last time that you asked how they were? Gave them flowers? Hugged them or gazed into their eyes or even sat down and talked about the silly little things?

Tell me…when was the last time you told them that you loved them?

Don’t lose sight of the bigger picture but don’t miss out on the details too.

When you look back in your old age, you will always remember

the way you made love,

the way her hair curls just so against her nape,

the piercing gaze a lover makes,

the flower that your child has given you,

that special dinner you cooked for each other,

her smell,

his breath against your neck as you lay sleeping, like two spoons in a drawer,

laughing together,

the way your embraces fit with his,

the time you were sick and you wake up to see that he has fallen asleep beside you on a chair,

your child on your lap as you read to him or her,

the adoring eyes your dog has on you as he enjoys you scratching his head,

You will never remember the paycheck you received that day,

Or the stress you had meeting a deadline,

the traffic on the way to work,

that irritating colleague,

They don’t have forever to wait. Do what you have to do now.

Don’t take your loved ones for granted. The little things are just as important as the big things you do for each other. It’s the small gestures that connects you everyday.

Sometimes we think there is a race to finish and that we always have to come in first.

Sometimes there is NO race to finish, only a price to pay for our actions.

As you grow older

As you grow older, you learn that:

You know what you want and don’t want.

Things that have seemed so terribly so important on the onset were trivial.

Issues that you thought were worth fighting for so heatedly was really so silly in the end.

You learn what’s really important and what’s not.

You appreciate what your parents have done to raise you.

You appreciate children for who they are.

The best things in life ARE free.

Earning THAT much money pales in comp arison to finding yourself alone on a Friday or Saturday night, getting drunk alone and no company in sight.

You realize that those silly love songs from the 80’s that told of finding and losing true love…applied to you after all.

You can be childlike without being childish.

What goes round REALLY comes around.

Doing good and helping others helps you put your problems in perspective…and hey your problem wasn’t really that bad after all.

The best sleeping pill is peace of mind.

Despite the cliché sounding so lame when you were crying your eyes out, it WILL pass and you WILL BE ok after.

Despite swearing off eating Durian, you gorge on dried Durian crackers.

Watching porn CAN get boring!

Sun screen is very important.

Dark skin is sexy ;-)

What you took in college is not what you really wanted to do in life.

There really is more to people than meets the eye.

Life doesn’t get easier as you grow old, you just know how to deal with it more.

Bogart the labrador

The Risk

You will never know unless you try. Even if they are with someone else, in time if you want them badly enough, they will be yours. How many times have we seen this in movies? It seems all so easy watching it on celluloid, man meets woman, they fall in love, either the man or woman has to go away then after a few years they meet again and never lose each other. Some aren’t real but incredibly enough some are real. It’s enough to make you think if it’s even possible for it to happen in your own life.

There is a risk in waiting and a risk in not waiting, a risk in trying and not trying.

In the end it’s a question of choosing love or fear.

Sometimes there is a need to rush things and push the issue: “Should we plunge into love or not?” The anxiety of not wanting to lose what the moment has, but afraid to regret in the end, that it was all shallow to begin with.

The thing is love NEEDS time to develop into something deeper. Then again that entails waiting, and therein lays the risk.

Knowing

I remember when I was 25, I had a vision of what I wanted in my life: a nice loving husband and a spectacular career that made me happy and fulfilled. I felt ready to be committed to someone for life and was raring to take up my choice of career.

Or so I thought.

I didn’t realize that I still lacked a lot of things to make anything work: I was still immature, I wasn’t grounded, I was impatient, I was given to frequent flights of impulse that made me penniless more than once. I was petty. And horrors of horrors! I was fat!

Fast forward: Reality check, I’m 29, almost got married and a string of jobs (and of boys) that was never permanent (or made me happy). I am still immature (well less than I was before), less impulsive and have finally shed that 20 lbs.

But I will always be thankful for what I went through. Without everything, I wouldn’t KNOW NOW what I want in life. It’s hard NOT KNOWING what you want in life, or worse, not realizing that what you thought you wanted, was not what was meant for you.

It is true that maturity comes with age, because experience makes you learn and experience only comes from what you go through in life as you grow older. Of course there will always be exceptions to the rule. But you know what I mean ;-)

At 29, I know what I want: getting married and sailing. Now, the tricky part is getting there.

Emilie update

Emilie did wake up after 1 day :-) Thank God for that!
Thank you so much for your prayers. It really helped a lot!

Emilie was lucky. Emilie will have to relearn some things again, like some numbers and she still has her memory largely intact. However, she will also need to learn how to walk again. But we are thankful for these small things.

The girl who was killed will have the funeral on sunday, another one is paralyzed from the neck down and will never walk again. At least the adult company who was with them is doing well.

The drunk driver was convicted and sentenced to 28 years in jail without any parole.

Again thank you all!

I need your prayers for Emilie Hansen

Please pray for my boyfriends little girl.
She was hit by a drunk driver in Denmark, who plowed into their playground injuring 2 other young girls and an adult who was guarding them.

Emilie Hansen is 6 years old and is in a coma right now. The doctors say that she has to wake up in 48 hours or brain damage will set in.
She is the lucky one. One of the girls died.

So please pray for her recovery!

Thank you so much!